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When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the tube
We can talk things over little time
Promise me you won't step outta line

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Please draw the past and be true
Don’t say we’re okay
Just because I’m here
You hurt me bad but I wont shed a tear

I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
Outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

When I get to Warwick Avenue
We’ll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you answers, now here’s the door

When I get to Warwick Avenue
I’ll tell baby there we’re through

Cause I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
An outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

All the days spent together
I wish for better,
And I didn’t want the train to come
Now it’s departed, I’m broken hearted
Seems like we never started
All those days spent together
When I wished for better
And I didn’t want the train to come.
No, no.

You think you’re loving
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me
You don’t love me
I want to be free
Baby you’ve hurt me

Warwick avenue

pains me to see him like that...really do...up till now i don't know how i want to sms him to advise him or help him....i really want to...i really do..but i don't know what i can do...tell me...i really feel like just pulling him out from this hole..but can i? or should i leave him to the one he feels more comfortable with now?

i felt uncomfortable hearing things, but at the same time hoped this person might be the one able to pull him out from this trench....really feel damn sucky these 2 days...maybe it's pms-ing time tts why its adding more effect into what im feeling....

i mean i have so much distraction ard me..i shldn't be this bothered and unhappy and all..BUT I AM....

what to do? can i do to help you?it hurts me to see you like that...i wish things for you would have gone well and shinning for you, but apprently your luck just went from bad to worst....stop being like that!!! Pull urself up!!!! dun keep on thinking u're doomed and ur life is getting worst! u're attracting the wrong thingss...i wished you were better off now and at least i can hate you and i'll feel better....now im just feeling so much worst after everytime i see you....

thats why maybe...as much as it pains me to say this, i really hope you have that someone to support you and help you, since for whatever reason i can't be the one for you to help you thru...

i think im not the one you want right now.....

looking forward to my next goal :)

this year i got a lot of urges and tendencies...now my new found goal, next working destination : Banyan Tree / Club Med

Hopefully i land a job in either one of these resorts, my next dream job destination. :)

The thought of going there to work  just fills up my day today. just makes me wanna change job now, but gotta 'REN' and work for another 1 year to 1/2year before i jump. then again, i have a tendency todo stupid things, like maybe resign tmr and apply for there..ahaha...say until macham like so simple..but i'm sure by next year i would wanna work there, can't drag any longer if not the age will catch up and won't have this urge to go and 'chiong'.

i wonder if i was still attached will i have these goals? or will i just stay in this office job and wait to settle down..i think i'm someone who loves to travel around..i know i take time to adapt and sometimes my adaptation skills arent exactly that strong, but cause so far i've had him to help me and support me..now if i were to jump into something like gg overseas to work, will i be able to take it? that's something i really wonder..i can somehow foresee the state i'll be in, but i should learn to be stronger..i can do it! ok, theres still a long way to that part..ahahaa..

Now that sunday we are also on standby just....sianzzzz -_____- ...haven't exactly been the sunday i was expecting, good thing i was out and being in a place i like and w my darling gf :) but i was still in a foul mood, ok, maybe not foul but definitely not too good...i think i need a job that doesn't require me to bring things back to do..i'd rather be there to work and settle it than to bring it home.. at least i know when i'm home i'm really off from work...now, but i know not many job gives u that kind of priviledge..

class 95...

is so sentimental at night...but i love the songs, it's sooooooooooo my time..ahaha..

17th May 2010...could have been.....what happened?.....can't look at any of our photos...*shakes head*

Went genting over the weekend just 2 weeks ago... can't say it was totally wonderful/good...came back and thingsjust got worst..to me, it's a small issue, miscommunication..theres no right/wrong....i mean base on this issue can put our so many years of friendship on the line? come on...real close/good friends can get over this...yes we'll have quarrel but it should make things better....to me it's no big issue....forget it and get over it...hate to see things turn out this way...and really feel that it's damn stupid that just cause of this incident our friendship became like that...like seriously wtf lo, we're all adults alrdy..

let's just kiss n make up...and get over it...

i miss you....and you too...

what did i realise?

been so emo the past 2 weeks(and i hate ittt!!!)..please let this weekend be the last.
wanted to blog abt smthg last night, but was too damn tired..

i realised....i fell in love with magic. as he was performing for me last night, (i mean, some stuff yes i know..)but i was still entertained..maybe cause i havent seen magic in quite awhile..it was just so nice (that's not a perfect word to describe it..) to watch him perform...i do miss the hang out sessions w his friends..all the sessioning and all....reminds me of the time when we were at fism...i hope i can go for the one in 2/3 years time...i really miss magic, but not just any magic...GOOD ones :)

i also realised how much i miss him.....leaving was awkward, i felt...cause it was just such a natural reaction to just turn my head...but opps...that felt awkward... :/ so sad..

i just felt so sad as i went to bed last night..not cause he didnt stay over...but rather why did this happen...how did we end up like that....

may i really to be blamed for everything?

at least now he has someone that takes care of him(not anything like that what u all think it is)...someone that does things that i have never done for him just as a friend...im not jealous...but rather felt that all these 6 yrs i didn't do anything much for him, i could have been better...did things i felt was right, but he didnt feel anything?...

what to do? what to say?

i realised, it's not easy to move on...i know i can't accept anyone now...or maybe the right one hasnt come around...but all i know is..i'm going to take one step at a time..i'm just so tired to be thinking abt all these..and hope for the best.. for us, for him and for me...

i realise i will still love you no matter what you become..

"i really hope eveything works well for you..i want to be there for you, to help you thru, but will you let me?"

two is better than one :)

"I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one"

i got hooked on this song...

rebound, revert, return....

when one feels lost and tired, this is the best alternative...

i just want to go back to the life i use to lead...

don't blame others what you have went through, some have gone through worse..but different experience comes with different ending...' all goods things come to an end'...i didn't expect mine to end so early...i was thinking more like when im buried deep under before it ended...

there is defnitely a rebound syndrome right now....i know..weak-ass...all that cursing and swearing for e past few weeks now suddenly seems to be choking myself...living in denial and stopping things from coming in my way is what i am doing now...i just want...i just want a lot of things, from whom , from where, from what...i must be mad to blog twice in 15minutes....

 i hate it when i start to pms...i need to get back on!

i hope, i pray and i wish.....that this was all a bad dream..

believe in things, think of what you want(e result) and not what you think might happen(e failed result)...e law of attraction applies...does it? i thought usually that's what ones desire...

what you think is what you attract...but usually what i think, i will attact the opposite...now..what's wrong with my mind...

i hate to be alone at home!..you know it.....

so going to miss all of you~

 awww im so gonna miss my cousins and niece and nephew = prisca and family... they're migrating to canada in about 2 days time... :(( happy for them, but sad to see them leave to far far awayyy.....

like what prisca said, gonna miss the wedding times when we had each other for company during all our other relatives wedding..ahaha and all the stupid things we do..staying up late at my hse, while she yak away on my laptop and me slping soundly..lol!..late night supper, bringing them out for movies..ahaha..

don't know when i'll see them again, probably in a few year time...hope they'll still remember us!!! hahaha...can start saving money to go there for holiday tooo!

prisca if u read this : take good care!!!! gonna miss you lots! hugss* love ya!

fism review by meeeee.. :))

work, study, work study......oh man...i need a holiday...i wouldnt exactly consider beijing trip a holiday..to me a holiday is to relax, have fun, own time own target rest and relax, no rush no nothing, just doing nothing basically..eehhehe..

eanyway,beijing trip as expected consist of magic, magic and more magiccc...but it is really an experience that u will nv wanna miss ,.so me and dd have decided that we will go to every fism from now onwards.. and the next one is at blackpool (UK), which also means, we have to take these 3 years to save for fism...

the magic u see there is like WAOOO, u've nv seen it on tv, what lu chen and all no la....the guest performers there are famous magicians and they bring their touring shows from countires like las vegas and all...fantastic!!!

and the competitions are wonderful, so many skillful & original acts.,. but one thing's for sure, these kind of magic is more like for magicians and people that understand abit of magic.,. if u go there really as a layman, you won't be able to appreciate some of the acts..just like some kids that do magic that are there too, they don;t know how to appreciate the goodness n beauty of the performer..

this guy called 'juan tamariz' he's really close up legend(to me la...ahahaa)...and i really love him for his magic and the way he so lovingly treats his wife...i really respect him..he's the talk of the whole convention, everytime his name is mentioned he has applauses wit a standing ovation...he makes magic impossible(u'll be thinking like "no, no...he won't do that, that's not possible..Noooooo.!!!!..") and happy and HYPER cause of his character (mind u he's like 70plus old i think)...ahahah...he's just amazing la..

next is my 2 favourite guys won 1st in the stage (manipulation)!!!!!!!one guy does a cd act and the other guy does a timber and wand act.,. they are just so amazing to watch them live!!!!!ahahhaa lost of words to describe..just fantactic..i believe their acts are on youtube..im just bias for these 2 acts ahhaha...there were lots of other good acts too!

proud and blessed to have gone to my 1st FISM!!!more to come :))

ps: i wanna post up some pics...but loading is really toooooo slowwww...whyyyyy...

change or not?

ok. let's see..should i change my blog to this or still keep on to blogspot?...hmm..